Life so stressful~~
Well, well.. life is so stressful... can sense that many people around me are all stresses up as well.. esp those form Y-Hope... How i wish life was more happy-go-lucky... Ministery and Studies Problems are all choking me up.. pushing me to the edge of the cliff.. oh well, at least this may be a test from God =/ How i wish i was sec 1 this year... can slack like nobody's buisness... hiaz.... O lvl's coming up... Looking at the amount of stuff i have to study... My gosh... I hope for HOLIDAYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Who dosen't want holidays...... but well, i have to face reality... its time for work.. playing shall be taken away from my dictionary...
Anw, I wana thank GOd for this verse that encourages me a little..
Joshua 1:9 NIV Have not I commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
English~
Sigh!~ my weakest subject.. English !! I had problem with it.. since primary school.. My Vocabulary is so limited... I can't write a proper essay without any grammer mistakes or spelling errors... To make things worst, my handwritting is Atrocious... >.< Anyone who can sympathise with me say amen ! haha...
So today i tried reading a book.. gave up after reading 8 pages.. too boring.. the whole 8 pages can simply be summerised in less then 10 words.. After that i did some past year papers (comprehension).. Thank God for my eng teacher Ms.Seah.. Asked her if she could make for me and she said "Yah of course !"... Hope to practice everyday.. And rather proud of myself today, I almost finished everything so early (:
-Listening to the sweet voice of God in a perfect rapture
My conversion's not an accident
Thank God !! Today i had such a good rest. Away from all the homework and just spending my day with God :) !! I not only wana thank God for this relaxing day, i wana thank God for supplying me with enough money to buy a packet of milo and a tuna sandwitch on my way home :).
Anyway, today while walking home, i saw the guys from Ywam and saw Daniel Leow. At that point of time, I thought about how I converted and all. It begain one fine afternoon while going to school to take my mid-year examination. I remember this happened when i was sec 2. While walking towards the school i noticed Marcus & Guo Bin with Daniel Leow seating at the void deck. So Daniel Leow ask me to come and chat. And there, this little action change my life. And it turn my life 180 degrees around. There and then, marcus starts his SOW-ing on me and well, I converted and so on.
In conclusion, my exsistance in Y-hope isn't a coincident. I am here for a reason.
lalala~
Tried to upload a picture but there seemed to be some problem with this computer.. anyway, today I basically rested.. ok.. fine its just a nicer way of saying "I slacked through the whole day"... today i went home and slept till 7 haha then my father taught me english.. (not bad teacher sia) made me realise how important english is.. after that i didn't do any other things.. hahaah... its so late.. i should have slept early... :(
Anyway, Felt so stress this few days... from ministery, Studies and family... everything seemed to cramp together.. mood not very good this few days.. but had to force a smile so that i won't spoil other people's day.. haha have also try not to be sad infront of marcus and jason haah.. they have enough things to worry about.. (don't wana add unto marcus' load)Hope he don't read... lol...deep withine.. haha very very stress... no mood to do anything... Got to repent.. my mood caused me to waste today.. didn't evansualise at all... Didn't do well in my test.. + many many many many stuff all come up together.. However, I really thank God.. that he have been there ALWAYS!! That i can find him at any time.. any where.. Thank God that he had always been faithful.. and made me realise that I should just let Go and trust in him... And after worship, i feel alot better !! God have never faill to make me feel better !! U rock God !!
Affirmation 2
Ok, so lets get on with the list of ppl...
Don: Sporty guy haha !! Can really lighten up atmosphere. Really good at hosting in CG hhaa.. another person that has to bare with my lame jokes.. Erm.. wana thank God for you for your heart for him.. the passion that wants to serve God forever till you die haha... Its obvious lar.. anw, continue to serve God.. lets see you 20 years down the road.. (wonder how you will be like)
Andre: Fellow sheep-mate !!! haha~ this guy is wierd... he got influence by my lameness and now, he is as lame as me... Haha.. anyway, I love to make fun of him... (i thought this was about affirming ?) okok, back to the topic, erm andre !! You are very very mature for your age... You will really be someone who will change SA in the years/months to come... All you need to do, is to remember to put God in the center of your life ok ? And surely, you will ROCK SA like never before !!! You have a great influencial heart.. use it wisely...
Stephen: HAha... this guy very open to me... Always make fun of him.. and i love it.. =) I remembered you once said to me. "No matter how bad things turn out, I will never leave church!" i'm really encouraged by that... You really love your peopel.. everyone around you.. You even humbled down so much just to show your love !! really thank God for that.. Even though u might not really know how 2 show love, I can sense your compassion and love for ppl =)... haa.. i remembered that time you spend lots of time + money to make a very nice goodie bag thingy for the whole CG !! WOW... if its me i will only just go to a nearby store and by sth and share it... haha... ya.. so.. Continue to Love and have Compassion... God will bless you with fruits !!
Khai Shuen: My new sheep-mate haha.. Very Cute guy.. I wana thank God for you for having this child-like passsion for him.. this child-like faith !! saw you praising God and worshipping Him today.. Really encourage about that... You have not make a wrong decision to become a christian and will never regret it !!! Lets see you bring your classmates to know this Joy + Fun ok ?
Yup so this is about it.. ahah... Affirming people is really fun and joyful thing to do.. feel free to tag at my tag board and i'll affirm you HAHAH !! (sounds sooooooooooooooooooo wierd)
Affirmation !!
alright.. the nice Joseph has decided to affirm some ppl in his CG~
Marcus: My one and only shepherd... ever since I came to church (blessing or curse ?) well.. haha.. he is really carring... (hate to admit it) He did so much for me haha.. if it wasn't for him, i would have backslidded long ago.. thx marcus !~ (gross so gay)... Continue to be passionate about God and use your gift of pastorial wisely !!!
Jun Hong: haha my first sheep... still my sheep now... This guy very easy to bluff one... I still have his KitKat white chocolate in my refigirator... erm.. really teachable... never questions me when i tell him to do things... I remembered that I have scold him alot alot alot.. once untill he..... better not say.. later he kill me haha.. but anw, Jun Hong !! thx for having patience with me !! Continue to have this child-like faith for God ok ?
Sunny: Haha.. my Careleader... Someone who can stand my lame jokes... ok.. sometimes even my lame "statements"... (jokes that are lame to the extand to be called statement).. He told and teach me many many stuff while we were talking in privert.. Biblical stuff that is.... He also told me many stuff that you all would never think off.. haha.. Thx for introducing me to patrick !! i would have flunk a maths in O'lvl if u had not haha... erm... as you enter into a new chapter of yout life, do continue to serve God and remember God is the main story in your life !!
Clarence: Had a tough time learning how 2 spell your name.... (is it spelled correctly ?) Know u for sooooo long hahaa... U are a very nice guy... yup.. very thoughtful... I remembered that time you bought kinder donnoe what for everyone haha.. thx !! I know you had to really put up with lame people like me at times.... haha but really appriciate everything you do for the group !! you have been a blessing to us !! Continue to serve God hard !! get a sheep soon and u can torture him like what i do to jun hong... *cough.. i mean its really nice to take care and build someone up (: also, hope that one day you can fufill your dream !!!
ok.. its 2am... i will stop here for the momment will continue tmr... (:
Bishan CC !!
Well, today went to bishan CC for the first time to study with sunny.. amazed at how quiet + nice the enviroment is... So i studied sci and practice maths from 12 - 5.... went homr after that.. suddenly, my dad told me to dress up nice as we are going somewhere special to eat.. So i just quickly bathe and wore a white polo-T and a jense... And was very tired from all the studying and slept in the car..... When i wake up.. i saw that we are in a.. rather normal carpark... went to the life and realised that i am in hotel meridian... Thought we were having chicken rice at first... but later on, i realised that we are eating at "Top of the M" sth like that.. really cool + expensive place.. the room revolves around slowly so taht we can see the scenery.. I ordered beef.. cost like $49... but i think its totally worth it... the muchroom soup cost like $18 and tea cost like $6... abit sick lar.. but rather nice.. feel like going again ahah !! so now i'm home... abit tired.... and wana sleep.. tmr gona go to sentosa.... hahaa.. hope no one get sting by jellyfish or that no one will get injured.... =)
EZ-link !!
Haha!~ oh well.. woke up today at 10 studied till 12 ! so proud of myself.... After that, went to play lan with marcus and kai shuen (Desmond pang seh !!).. met up at Mrt station.. (marcus late !!! i know he must be testing my patience..) spend half an hour or so walking around because marcus forgot to bring his compass out.. and lost his way.. (No sense of direction lar !!) haha i am so bad... After that played Lan for 4h before i rushed home... only to realise halfway that I forgot to take my EZ-link from the lan shop guy (hope mom won't read this).... after that.. went for tuition at patrick's... learned intergration... and forgot... Now... here I am.. just finished another 2h of studying... and hour ago.. marcus suddenly asked me a rather funny qn (on msn) .. i'm not gona tell you what he said... and then i was like No i did not to that !! and ask him why he ask such a wierd qn as his tone was very serious... so, he simply said i will tell u later... and went offline.. half and hour or so later.. he msg me telling me.. it was a test of patience... -_-"
Blessing: Oh... ok haha.. thank God that Marcus helped me go all the way back to the lan shop to find my EZ-link.. (so caring !! *cough) and.. yar... he found it.......
I CAN'T DO INTEGRATION WITH X^2 and above !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1st time study so long~
Well, today(yesterday) was rather special.. I woke up around 12+.. and somehow decided to do some research on dota items at around 1 haahah (crazy me i'm not crazy about dota.. just want to at least plan abit haha)... after taht at around 2+ went to study with my cousin below her flat... studied for 4h !! wow first time.. not bad for a start... went home and rested.. wanted to study chem.. but didn't haha.... too lazy...
Blessings: oh well, today i was looking desperately for contacts to ask out for sow.. Called 20 over people.. sadly none wana come/busy.. but i left one more who said he'll confirm with me tmr.. hope that he will come.. However, the blessing for today is that I learnt that even when circumstance is not very good and all hope is gone, Continue to hope anyway.... (=
Blessings~
Today(yesterday) was fairly fruitful. Studied A maths after that, went out to get a Science-Chemistery study guide. Found a really good one. Ok, fine... i didn't purposely went out to buy it.. i followed my sis out cause she agreed to treat me Sake sushi...
Well, i decided to update 1 blessing (testimony) a day. Cause i realised that only when we expect a blessing then we will have a blessing from God. And yes.. I think it is really true !! So today's blessing is that, I was really hungry, and wanted to eat sth nice.. but then, there isn't any nice instant noodle flavour available. So, I prayed that i will somehow be able to find a nice packet of instant noodle. However, i can't. I only found a packet of flavouring that seemed like the one i like. To my horror, after i open a packet of instant noodle to substitude the flavouring, I realised that both flabouring of the one i opened and the one i found is the same. So I was like jia lart... how to eat.. So i sighed and prepare the hot water.. after 2 minutes, i realised that the water's colour seemed abit wierd (bronze colour) and i didn't trust the water, also, I forgot to put my noodle into a hot water to remove the wax or some unknown substance before I threw it into the other hot water that I cook.. So i decided to just throw my noodle into the Bronze colour looking water.. since I am not going to drink it, i guess a little of it won't kill me.. So, after pouring away the water, somehow i decided to make my own flavouring. haha. so I placed the half-cooked noodle on the plate. Somehow, i decided to sprinkle some of the packet flavouring on to my noodles and then pour a little plain water to dilute it. After that I decided to take sweet sauce but Somehow, I decided not to. Somehow, I decided to put some sesame oil + chilli. At the end.. it teasted..... erm... er... i think... it tasted... REALLY GOOD !! and obviously its God's annointing hahaha.. its kinda lame lar.. but its really not me who made it !! (: There's too many SOMEHOWS to be me...
Liverpool Lost !! wa lao !!
Who am I
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours Who am I -
Casting Crowns
Life is really short. Its here now.. and its gone later.. its very unpredictable.. 20 years from now, 30 years from now, or even 50 years from now, Will I still be so on fire for God ? will i still serve God ? Will I be of the world ? i can't really tell what would happen.. But, i know my future is in God's hand. However, will I still impact and change people's life 50 years from now ? Or even 2-3 years from now ? when I can't really be at the front of the battle line..
So, for now.. the best thing to do is to work hard for God.. I don't know about tomorrow.. but i am certain about today.. Now... Life is for NOW.. I must really start living every precious seconds fruifully. I must not waste anymore time... THE HARVEST IS HERE !! THE KINGDOM IS NEAR !!
Scolding~
wah..today very sian lor.. whole day kena scolding.. by parents, teachers etc. Sian.... In addition to my burden, I have tons of homework to do.. and haha its almost 2am now.. just finished my SS essay... didn't do my a maths...
Abit sad sia today.. i left my hp on my parent's car after the drop me off for piano lesson... Then i didn't have the chance to invite people for sat service.. Its time for us to grow already !!! If now is not the time, then when will it be ?? I am rather confident that i will have at least one friend (preferbly sec1 or 2) to be coming for Sat service... By God's grace !! I must start seeing fruits already !!!
Lastly, sigh.. i didn't really study this whole week.. didn't really follow my time-table for studying.. i really need to start studying alredy !! but i am just playing lazy.. must find a way to love studying haha !~ L1R5 9 points !! here i come ~~~
